What is a “sabbatical”?

For the world, it is something very risky, unconventional, or may be even an impulsive choice.

But over the last 8 months, I experienced something unexpected:

There is something deeply liberating about no longer constantly needing to be responsible or impressive in the way the world demands and just living life for your own self.

As the Italians say, ‘dolce far niente’ — which for me meant finding joy in rest, stillness, softness and simply being present in life. 🍷🎶

Slowly, I learnt how to be kinder to myself, enjoy my own company and solitude, stop measuring my worth through productivity or a to-do list and to have genuine fun and rest with no guilt or anxiety of a Monday.

For the first time in life, I feel free.

I smile genuinely , rest without the constant fear of failure or falling behind and travel whenever I want.

I realised there is nothing more beautiful than happiness and peace that come from within, not from external milestones, where nothing have to be achieved or fixed before I am allowed to enjoy my life.

Somewhere in this sabbatical, I slowly started finding “my value” outside performance or problem, just as a human, as a person.

And now, it has started to feel exciting to think that once I am able to create a structure out of this peaceful ambiguity while living from pull rather than constant push, life may finally resolve the missing thing:
‘Feeling fulfilled’ 🍃

💕